It's over now after all these years,
I said goodbye with pain and tears.
we traveled together the road of life,
As you walked away i felt the knife.
We laughed and cried it was fun,
But i realize what's left is none.
I still can see it in my dreams,
All i can hear now are only my screams.
Day after day the world dies,
You left me in the dark with lies.
The sky and earth lost their color,
You abandoned alone as some dead crawler.
Lost all hope to restore the past,
Yet i know that my heart will last.
All alone and scared in this land,
Still the future comes with a helping hand.
Damn my heart and mind,
damn my life and soul.
life is a bitch and so does mine,
thinking, who is right who is wrong.
Need my peace need my quiet,
need my little dark place,
lost my mind and heart in the past,
now those ghost came to hunt me.
Once more the battle started,
the battle for my soul and future,
who is right , who is wrong,
only master time can tell the future.
Who is wrong? who is right?
is it mind? or is it the heart?
who to listen? who to surrender?
only master time can tell us the answer.
I see her and think,
what have I found in her.
I go home and remember,
I miss her eyes and beauty.
I thought that I can't love anymore,
but I see that the heart is immortal.
All I want is to feel loved,
I want someone that will be with me all day long.
Back then I had someone to die for,
right now I can die of loneliness.
I can't even recognize myself anymore,
I'm a freak of nature.
I miss her smell and hair,
I miss her hands in mine.
I miss her eyes, so dark and mysterious,
I miss her lips and heart.
Angel walking in the human world,
looking for a way to break the border.
Watch people while they sleep and dream,
searching for a place not so dim.
Angel, so lonely in this world of sin,
world which threw justice and honor to the bin.
Searching for the one who will see true,
looking for the one who will not make him blue.
Angel, fly in the gray poisoned sky,
searching for the man who will not lie.
Angel, goes down the drain of evil stain,
looking for a place to rest without pain.
Angel left alone in this world of ice,
desperately looking for a place pure like wedding rice.
Angel left alone in a world made of evil and sin,
angel
One mistake took it all,
one mistake ruined, and start a snowball.
One wrong move which moved right,
one wrong move, I want to shut the light.
Wrong move stopped my heart,
the right can't be bought, in a mart.
Mistake took good days away,
mistakes that will forever surf on a shallow bay.
Sorry for that one mistake,
sorry that came with a cake.
Sorry for that wrong move,
sorry that comes with a heart-ake.
One wrong thing, one big mistake,
killed all what I built.
One sorry, a real sorry, cuz I miss you,
I miss your voice, and laugh.
Sorry in words, cuz I can't say it,
I'm ashamed to talk to you, so... Sorry.
I threw my past life, took a new page,
looked deep inside, and found a new age.
A page that won't be used, but clean and white,
a start not bitter but a start in the light.
Wandering in the western land for too long,
searching for a life that exists only in forgotten song.
Many clues I saw in my way which said, that it's all wrong,
I knew that, but I want to know how it all work along.
I stopped and looked back, maybe I could see what I missed,
but all what I have seen was the my dim past in a twist.
The road I chose in the past was full of wrong,
but who knows what is good and bad, just like a plain song.
I took a new path, one w
Thank you for opening my eyes,
thanks for the true words.
You told me I'm a bad person,
I thought I would fly to heaven with the birds.
Thank you for your honesty,
thank you for the good times we had.
I at least think they were good,
even if you try to be evil you're not so bad.
You told me I'm a liar you right,
you told me I'm a pathetic person it's correct.
All what you said was true and unquestionable,
well all you said I already knew.
After you said it I got a shock,
but i thought about it and realized.
Because of what you said you made me a favor,
you gave me my heart and because of that I got my freedom back.
So for the
Why have I remembered it now,
my lost dead past.
I thought that I have buried it,
in the depths of my heart's lust.
I have remembered her,
my first love back then.
I still can't believe how you left,
to the cruel black den.
Now I understand how much I miss you,
if only I could see you once more.
I think maybe I will go after you,
but I can't just leave this world's war.
I would like to think that you miss me,
that I was important.
I hope that you are in a better place now,
because you were the light, of my life.
I can't feel my heart,
yet I feel it's pain.
I can't feel any warmness,
but, I can feel the empty vain.
I love her,
and want to be with her.
Yet I hate her,
and want to see her suffer.
One day she says,
"I miss you, and want to come back".
Yet the next day I see,
that she has lied, she has someone.
An empty life, got no purpose,
standing alone with a question mark.
An empty heart, got no one,
he is alone, crying in the dark.
I met her and I thought to my self,
"now I will be happy, no more I will be alone".
But yet again I was wrong it all went down,
I have seen how she betrayed me, and turned me away.
At that moment I thought that I don't care,
I'm not her mom, she can do whatever she wants.
But, I realized that I do care, it hurts my heart.
and yet I can't understand my self, do I care or not.
The day after, we broke up and yet she didn't care,
I feel like she treated me like an old toy.
You play it once, twice and the day after you can throw it away.
right now I don't know what to feel, happy, sad, or envies.
My heart is going mad, one moment happy
It's over now after all these years,
I said goodbye with pain and tears.
we traveled together the road of life,
As you walked away i felt the knife.
We laughed and cried it was fun,
But i realize what's left is none.
I still can see it in my dreams,
All i can hear now are only my screams.
Day after day the world dies,
You left me in the dark with lies.
The sky and earth lost their color,
You abandoned alone as some dead crawler.
Lost all hope to restore the past,
Yet i know that my heart will last.
All alone and scared in this land,
Still the future comes with a helping hand.
Damn my heart and mind,
damn my life and soul.
life is a bitch and so does mine,
thinking, who is right who is wrong.
Need my peace need my quiet,
need my little dark place,
lost my mind and heart in the past,
now those ghost came to hunt me.
Once more the battle started,
the battle for my soul and future,
who is right , who is wrong,
only master time can tell the future.
Who is wrong? who is right?
is it mind? or is it the heart?
who to listen? who to surrender?
only master time can tell us the answer.
I see her and think,
what have I found in her.
I go home and remember,
I miss her eyes and beauty.
I thought that I can't love anymore,
but I see that the heart is immortal.
All I want is to feel loved,
I want someone that will be with me all day long.
Back then I had someone to die for,
right now I can die of loneliness.
I can't even recognize myself anymore,
I'm a freak of nature.
I miss her smell and hair,
I miss her hands in mine.
I miss her eyes, so dark and mysterious,
I miss her lips and heart.
Angel walking in the human world,
looking for a way to break the border.
Watch people while they sleep and dream,
searching for a place not so dim.
Angel, so lonely in this world of sin,
world which threw justice and honor to the bin.
Searching for the one who will see true,
looking for the one who will not make him blue.
Angel, fly in the gray poisoned sky,
searching for the man who will not lie.
Angel, goes down the drain of evil stain,
looking for a place to rest without pain.
Angel left alone in this world of ice,
desperately looking for a place pure like wedding rice.
Angel left alone in a world made of evil and sin,
angel
One mistake took it all,
one mistake ruined, and start a snowball.
One wrong move which moved right,
one wrong move, I want to shut the light.
Wrong move stopped my heart,
the right can't be bought, in a mart.
Mistake took good days away,
mistakes that will forever surf on a shallow bay.
Sorry for that one mistake,
sorry that came with a cake.
Sorry for that wrong move,
sorry that comes with a heart-ake.
One wrong thing, one big mistake,
killed all what I built.
One sorry, a real sorry, cuz I miss you,
I miss your voice, and laugh.
Sorry in words, cuz I can't say it,
I'm ashamed to talk to you, so... Sorry.
I threw my past life, took a new page,
looked deep inside, and found a new age.
A page that won't be used, but clean and white,
a start not bitter but a start in the light.
Wandering in the western land for too long,
searching for a life that exists only in forgotten song.
Many clues I saw in my way which said, that it's all wrong,
I knew that, but I want to know how it all work along.
I stopped and looked back, maybe I could see what I missed,
but all what I have seen was the my dim past in a twist.
The road I chose in the past was full of wrong,
but who knows what is good and bad, just like a plain song.
I took a new path, one w
Thank you for opening my eyes,
thanks for the true words.
You told me I'm a bad person,
I thought I would fly to heaven with the birds.
Thank you for your honesty,
thank you for the good times we had.
I at least think they were good,
even if you try to be evil you're not so bad.
You told me I'm a liar you right,
you told me I'm a pathetic person it's correct.
All what you said was true and unquestionable,
well all you said I already knew.
After you said it I got a shock,
but i thought about it and realized.
Because of what you said you made me a favor,
you gave me my heart and because of that I got my freedom back.
So for the
Why have I remembered it now,
my lost dead past.
I thought that I have buried it,
in the depths of my heart's lust.
I have remembered her,
my first love back then.
I still can't believe how you left,
to the cruel black den.
Now I understand how much I miss you,
if only I could see you once more.
I think maybe I will go after you,
but I can't just leave this world's war.
I would like to think that you miss me,
that I was important.
I hope that you are in a better place now,
because you were the light, of my life.
I can't feel my heart,
yet I feel it's pain.
I can't feel any warmness,
but, I can feel the empty vain.
I love her,
and want to be with her.
Yet I hate her,
and want to see her suffer.
One day she says,
"I miss you, and want to come back".
Yet the next day I see,
that she has lied, she has someone.
An empty life, got no purpose,
standing alone with a question mark.
An empty heart, got no one,
he is alone, crying in the dark.
I met her and I thought to my self,
"now I will be happy, no more I will be alone".
But yet again I was wrong it all went down,
I have seen how she betrayed me, and turned me away.
At that moment I thought that I don't care,
I'm not her mom, she can do whatever she wants.
But, I realized that I do care, it hurts my heart.
and yet I can't understand my self, do I care or not.
The day after, we broke up and yet she didn't care,
I feel like she treated me like an old toy.
You play it once, twice and the day after you can throw it away.
right now I don't know what to feel, happy, sad, or envies.
My heart is going mad, one moment happy
The feeling of being dirty,
The crawling on my skin,
Everywhere you touched me,
Covered in filth and sin.
Steeped I am in self disgust,
The urge to tear apart,
To shed my outer self away,
And squeeze and rip my heart.
No matter how hard I try,
How much I scrub and scour,
Peeling away layers of flesh,
Can't remove your dour.
I watch the crimson river flow,
Down the shower drain,
Curled up crying to myself,
Alive 'cos I feel pain.
All around the flowers bloom,
Leaves budding over the trees,
New hopes and aspirations,
Accompany you with joy.
A great world full of life,
How can it be better than this?
But you can't help but wonder.
Everything turns dull and cold,
How could I be so foolish?
A strangely beautiful wasteland.
When you walk home alone at night,
you hear nothing but the rustling of the trees.
You truly have a sense of how alone you are in this world.
Every night that you walk through the dark,
there is no one to catch you if you fall.
But every night you walk alone.
It is invigorating to walk in the dark
and know you are your only light.
Love Me, Love Me Not by IChooseToLookUp, literature
Literature
Love Me, Love Me Not
In the night
You take my heart
The little fragile thing it is
And start pulling it to pieces
With each piece
You quietly whisper
"She loves me,
She loves me not"
I wince with each little bit
As you tear it up
And let it drift to the ground
Leaving a trail behind you
"She loves me,
She loves me not"
You murmur to no one
No one but yourself
If only I could rip that heart
Right out of your hands
If only I could wave it in your face
And scream at you
If only I could scream
"It's 'she loves me'
It will always be 'she loves me'
Because I don't know how to stop!"
But maybe you wouldn't even notice
You'd just pick up every pi